Being pulled out of the mix last minute in 2012 would have sucked. I'm so glad you came back the following year for another go. Were there times where you thought 'stuff 'em I'm not applying again?'
i remember being shattered. i decided i would allow myself one day to sook so closed my door and stayed in bed all day crying. i then put on my Facebook that night an update of one of my favourite dalai lama quotes: "remember not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck". within 2 weeks i was running naked on rihanna's tour plane in front of the world. i spent the year developing a rockstar attitude that i would always live on instinct and didn't care what others around me thought or were doing.
when auditions came back around in 2013 i just knew in my heart that i was going to be on, but i was totally ok if i didn't.