So a dear friend of mine passed on, at the age of 54. She got Lung Cancer, and never partook in the fags. Sure, she was exposed to passive smoking etc, but the Doctors do not think this was the cause. She was diagnosed with a rare gene, one that usually only Asian woman have........... Even though she didn't have that heritage. Just show us all, that there is no rules in life, health and what we are dealt.
I was beside myself, that I would not be able to fly over for the babes funeral and also the guilt that I had for not going to see my donna, when I was told she was sick, 3 years ago. She outlasted the 18 months they gave her, which I was never told about.
I called her hubby this morning and had a huge chat. He reassured me that all is OK and that it is best that I remember her, as I remember in our last meeting YEARS ago ......... when she was laughing and joking with me

but
He said she was so sick and she took on a last ditch attempt at chemo in the last few weeks. He got a call from the Dr and he thought it was just to say she was ready for pick up - but it wasn't.
Not being a Catholic and not understanding that Church process of their way of a funeral, I am not going to pressure myself, nor to go to it. I believe a Funeral should be a celebration of life, not a blessing etc etc, because she does not need to be blessed and whatever they do. She was a beautiful person that treated everyone with love and respect.
I have hundreds of pis of us and her and others that I wanted to send them onto the Funeral, so people that knew could see some of the light and bright she brought to all - but unfortunatly that is not how it is done.
I am going to make my own recording of our friendship - through pics and video etc and I might send onto her family anyway - might take a few months, but I will feel better by doing so .......
Makes life real when stuff like this happens, and getting older - It is going to happen more often.........
Love yours, like never before
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