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Umm.... Where there posts deleted in this thread? That previous pages make no sense at all.

@hooleydooly made this thread to support people who are feeling down or upset about life, I can't believe that someone would troll this thread.

Well I am happy to report that today I am doing OK.
 
Feelings are not always pretty, in fact they can be down right ugly at times. They can also be expressed in any number of ways. I like to express my feelings, or what I feel, through creative or descriptive writing. Sure that may not be to everybody's liking, but it helps me to express myself. It is a metaphorical representation of the pain I feel about life. Of how I wish that I could have no feelings and be a robot. But my feelings make me who I am.

I am sorry if anyone was offended by my comments in this thread, but I would not troll this thread, this thread is too important not to be taken seriously, and although people may think that I was trolling in this thread I was just expressing my feelings through some creative writing.
 
Inigo Montoya said:
Umm.... Where there posts deleted in this thread? That previous pages make no sense at all.

@hooleydooly made this thread to support people who are feeling down or upset about life, I can't believe that someone would troll this thread.

Well I am happy to report that today I am doing OK.
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It seems you jumped straight to outrage without being sure of the facts. Nobody "trolled" and nothing was removed.

It seems Hooley felt Reepbot was mocking the thread with his story and voiced it, as is her right. No need for the hysteria.

I am glad you are doing okay.
 
reepbot said:
Feelings are not always pretty, in fact they can be down right ugly at times. They can also be expressed in any number of ways. I like to express my feelings, or what I feel, through creative or descriptive writing. Sure that may not be to everybody's liking, but it helps me to express myself. It is a metaphorical representation of the pain I feel about life. Of how I wish that I could have no feelings and be a robot. But my feelings make me who I am.

I am sorry if anyone was offended by my comments in this thread, but I would not troll this thread, this thread is too important not to be taken seriously, and although people may think that I was trolling in this thread I was just expressing my feelings through some creative writing.
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For what it is worth, I thought you were just expressing humour or an exaggeration of mock humour in your post to hooley Dooley. Maybe because I already know how you post and know that you like to make a tale from just about anything.

I like your form of expression :)

I'm glad that people are ok and I hope everyone else will be ok too
 
Sweetgeek said:
For what it is worth, I thought you were just expressing humour or an exaggeration of mock humour in your post to hooley Dooley. Maybe because I already know how you post and know that you like to make a tale from just about anything.

I like your form of expression :)

I'm glad that people are ok and I hope everyone else will be ok too
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Thank you for your understanding. But it is my fault for not communicating properly in this thread. I deserved the backlash.

I hope you are ok!
 
reepbot said:
Thank you for your understanding. But it is my fault for not communicating properly in this thread. I deserved the backlash.

I hope you are ok!
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Don't be so hard on yourself. You don't deserve any backlash. With discussion any misunderstandings can be resolved :)

I'm doing ok.
 
Sweetgeek said:
Don't be so hard on yourself. You don't deserve any backlash. With discussion any misunderstandings can be resolved :)

I'm doing ok.
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That is true. Talking can resolve issues, and that has done so for me in the past. But I have learned that sometimes people don't want to listen and there is nothing you can do about it.
 
reepbot said:
That is true. Talking can resolve issues, and that has done so for me in the past. But I have learned that sometimes people don't want to listen and there is nothing you can do about it.
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I feel very distressed when people don't want to listen.
 
eh, here goes. i need to get stuff off my chest as best i can and this seems ample enough for some catharsis.

i really dislike myself for what i did tonight. everyone has their vices but the magnitude to which they succumb is to each and everyone their own outlet. for me, my vice got to dangerous levels the last time i got pulled in, and i got pulled in again tonight. i've tried staying away but i can't. i'm just sitting here feeling bad knowing what i've done and how this has undone so much hard work i've done. i don't want to go back.
 
beardymac said:
eh, here goes. i need to get stuff off my chest as best i can and this seems ample enough for some catharsis.

i really dislike myself for what i did tonight. everyone has their vices but the magnitude to which they succumb is to each and everyone their own outlet. for me, my vice got to dangerous levels the last time i got pulled in, and i got pulled in again tonight. i've tried staying away but i can't. i'm just sitting here feeling bad knowing what i've done and how this has undone so much hard work i've done. i don't want to go back.
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Stay strong

Sometimes a relapse answers many of the 'what if' questions abstaining from ANY vice asks of us daily.

Your desire to recreate last night's submission will dissipate if your words here are genuine - - which i have NO doubt are.

Again, stay strong

Glen
 
beardymac said:
eh, here goes. i need to get stuff off my chest as best i can and this seems ample enough for some catharsis.

i really dislike myself for what i did tonight. everyone has their vices but the magnitude to which they succumb is to each and everyone their own outlet. for me, my vice got to dangerous levels the last time i got pulled in, and i got pulled in again tonight. i've tried staying away but i can't. i'm just sitting here feeling bad knowing what i've done and how this has undone so much hard work i've done. i don't want to go back.
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I don't have any words of wisdom, but just wanted to say I'm thinking of you
 
I was kind of drunk at the time so I vaguely remember venting here.
I've had my time to sit there and talk myself down for doing what I did today. I know what happened last time and how much it affected me and a lot of people I cared about. I now know the temptation to go back is always going to be in the back of my mind; but that I can't allow myself to go back because of how it makes me feel.
Thanks for all your wishes, guys. It really means a lot.
 
Big hugs @beardymac , I think from what you have posted before you are only in your early 20's? if that? Life is a learning curve we are forever discovering new things about our minds/body & soul. I tell my daughter that sometimes it's not until you have done something that you realise it was a mistake & you should have taken the other path. That's where you learn, try again & keep going :)

Not sure what your vice is, but we all have them. The tricky part when you don't allow yourself something you want it more. So you kinda have to allow/indulge yourself in more healthier/happier ways until you no longer feel any temptation & that vice is no longer an issue xx
 
@beardymac

This may help you
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Just remember to identify a lapse compared to a relapse so you don't slip into the whole guilt shame cycle too :) It shall pass
 
el'coopo said:
Big hugs @beardymac , I think from what you have posted before you are only in your early 20's? if that? Life is a learning curve we are forever discovering new things about our minds/body & soul. I tell my daughter that sometimes it's not until you have done something that you realise it was a mistake & you should have taken the other path. That's where you learn, try again & keep going :)

Not sure what your vice is, but we all have them. The tricky part when you don't allow yourself something you want it more. So you kinda have to allow/indulge yourself in more healthier/happier ways until you no longer feel any temptation & that vice is no longer an issue xx
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Yeah, I'm 20 later this year.

I don't know if I've mentioned it here before. I went table gambling the night I turned 18. Not sure how long it took to become an addiction. I know there was three week period during first year where I skipped uni every day for a week to go to the casino, probably about four months or so after my 18th birthday, so I guess it was before then.
 
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