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Yeah, I'm 20 later this year.

I don't know if I've mentioned it here before. I went table gambling the night I turned 18. Not sure how long it took to become an addiction. I know there was three week period during first year where I skipped uni every day for a week to go to the casino, probably about four months or so after my 18th birthday, so I guess it was before then.

I personally think it shows great strength and courage to recognise in yourself that it had shifted from just a bit of fun to an addiction. You aren't the first person, and won't be the last. But glad you can see it for what it is, and I hope you seek help if/ when you need it. There is no shame xx
 
you got a friend here @reepbot

Thank you for your kind words, @hooleydooley. Still, it is always very sad when a friendship gets broken for whatever reason. Especially one in which I reallly enjoyed interacting with that person and valued their advice and support. Now that the friendship is broken there is a part of me that feels emotionally empty. I am trying not to fill that emptiness by eating heaps due to my food addiction like I have done in the past because I realise that is a very vicious and lonely cycle. Feel empty due to loneliness or anxiety, eat to heal the pain, next day still feel empty. Food addiction ruined my life, causing me to become unhealthy, overweight, and steal money from my family to fund my addiction to food. But I decided to gain control of that part of my life because I knew that I couldn't keep on doing what I was doing. I still get cravings to eat heaps of unhealthy food evveryday. Listening to Tina Arena, crazy as it sounds, has helped me to control my cravings because I get the same feelings that I used to get when I was eating junk food, except this time the feelings are more real. Lucky I seem to have my emotional eating and food addiction under some sort of control at the moment (although there have been some lapses).

When I made that friendship it filled a hole that I wasn't aware needed filling. I was perfectly happy never to have any friends at all for the rest of my life. But I thought I really connected with this person in a funny sort of way. I really wanted to get to know them and spend time interacting with them. However, that seems to be over now. I just hope they know how much their friendship meant to me, and that I wish that person happiness.
 
Thank you for your kind words, @hooleydooley. Still, it is always very sad when a friendship gets broken for whatever reason. Especially one in which I reallly enjoyed interacting with that person and valued their advice and support. Now that the friendship is broken there is a part of me that feels emotionally empty. I am trying not to fill that emptiness by eating heaps due to my food addiction like I have done in the past because I realise that is a very vicious and lonely cycle. Feel empty due to loneliness or anxiety, eat to heal the pain, next day still feel empty. Food addiction ruined my life, causing me to become unhealthy, overweight, and steal money from my family to fund my addiction to food. But I decided to gain control of that part of my life because I knew that I couldn't keep on doing what I was doing. I still get cravings to eat heaps of unhealthy food evveryday. Listening to Tina Arena, crazy as it sounds, has helped me to control my cravings because I get the same feelings that I used to get when I was eating junk food, except this time the feelings are more real. Lucky I seem to have my emotional eating and food addiction under some sort of control at the moment (although there have been some lapses).

When I made that friendship it filled a hole that I wasn't aware needed filling. I was perfectly happy never to have any friends at all for the rest of my life. But I thought I really connected with this person in a funny sort of way. I really wanted to get to know them and spend time interacting with them. However, that seems to be over now. I just hope they know how much their friendship meant to me, and that I wish that person happiness.

Humans crave connection, its built in our DNA, as much as we deny it, or try and deprive ourselves from it, we seek it, and once it happens its hard to deny it again, I hope you can find a new friendship, a more worthy friendship, in which the person values you as much!
 
Humans crave connection, its built in our DNA, as much as we deny it, or try and deprive ourselves from it, we seek it, and once it happens its hard to deny it again, I hope you can find a new friendship, a more worthy friendship, in which the person values you as much!

I hope so too. But I'm also holding out that maybe I could fix my broken friendship. That maybe I could be friends with them again. I know that sounds silly, and people will tell me to let go, but if I let go of that hope then the friendship that I had with that person was obviously not special enough.
 
I hope so too. But I'm also holding out that maybe I could fix my broken friendship. That maybe I could be friends with them again. I know that sounds silly, and people will tell me to let go, but if I let go of that hope then the friendship that I had with that person was obviously not special enough.

If its who I think it is, I think you have been played along, its easy for by standers to see, and I think you deserve better
 
Thank you for your kind words, @hooleydooley. Still, it is always very sad when a friendship gets broken for whatever reason. Especially one in which I reallly enjoyed interacting with that person and valued their advice and support. Now that the friendship is broken there is a part of me that feels emotionally empty. I am trying not to fill that emptiness by eating heaps due to my food addiction like I have done in the past because I realise that is a very vicious and lonely cycle. Feel empty due to loneliness or anxiety, eat to heal the pain, next day still feel empty. Food addiction ruined my life, causing me to become unhealthy, overweight, and steal money from my family to fund my addiction to food. But I decided to gain control of that part of my life because I knew that I couldn't keep on doing what I was doing. I still get cravings to eat heaps of unhealthy food evveryday. Listening to Tina Arena, crazy as it sounds, has helped me to control my cravings because I get the same feelings that I used to get when I was eating junk food, except this time the feelings are more real. Lucky I seem to have my emotional eating and food addiction under some sort of control at the moment (although there have been some lapses).

When I made that friendship it filled a hole that I wasn't aware needed filling. I was perfectly happy never to have any friends at all for the rest of my life. But I thought I really connected with this person in a funny sort of way. I really wanted to get to know them and spend time interacting with them. However, that seems to be over now. I just hope they know how much their friendship meant to me, and that I wish that person happiness.

I wanted to let you know you make me laugh and smile so much, you are quirky, quick witted and also incredibly intelligent, and you are an incredibly refreshing person. They are the one losing out. Try not being to hard on yourself. There are a lot of people on here who are like me and adore you
 
Hey @reepbot, while I wouldn't go as far to say I adore you, I see you are a complex character. Love and friendship is meant to be simple. Friendship makes you feel good, it shouldn't make you feel insecure, it shouldn't make you question yourself, it shouldn't make you doubt yourself, it shouldn't make you feel like you need to change who you are to suit their needs and most importantly it should never make you feel like you have to beg to retain it.

Time you found a new friend, because judging by the way this one makes you feel - she is no friend at all.
 
I wanted to let you know you make me laugh and smile so much, you are quirky, quick witted and also incredibly intelligent, and you are an incredibly refreshing person. They are the one losing out. Try not being to hard on yourself. There are a lot of people on here who are like me and adore you

Thank you for your kind words, @delcan!

If its who I think it is, I think you have been played along, its easy for by standers to see, and I think you deserve better

Thank you for your concern, but I don't think I have been played along in regards to my friendship.

Hey @reepbot, while I wouldn't go as far to say I adore you, I see you are a complex character. Love and friendship is meant to be simple. Friendship makes you feel good, it shouldn't make you feel insecure, it shouldn't make you question yourself, it shouldn't make you doubt yourself, it shouldn't make you feel like you need to change who you are to suit their needs and most importantly it should never make you feel like you have to beg to retain it.

Time you found a new friend, because judging by the way this one makes you feel - she is no friend at all.

My friendship with that person did make me feel good. It made me smile. It made me feel joy.
 
Thank you for your kind words, @delcan!



Thank you for your concern, but I don't think I have been played along in regards to my friendship.



My friendship with that person did make me feel good. It made me smile. It made me feel joy.
Reep...she may have made you feel great and gave you joy when you were friends, but she is making you feel worthless now, and you deserve far better than that. There are so many layers to you, and one day you are going to meet someone that will peel those layers and find an exceptional person, and make you very happy. I don't think she is the one :)
 
Reep...she may have made you feel great and gave you joy when you were friends, but she is making you feel worthless now, and you deserve far better than that. There are so many layers to you, and one day you are going to meet someone that will peel those layers and find an exceptional person, and make you very happy. I don't think she is the one :)
You really are such a kind person.
 
Reep...she may have made you feel great and gave you joy when you were friends, but she is making you feel worthless now, and you deserve far better than that. There are so many layers to you, and one day you are going to meet someone that will peel those layers and find an exceptional person, and make you very happy. I don't think she is the one :)

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....I can have more than one friend can't I? But thank you for your kind words.
 
Things are about the same here. How are things with you?

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Well, I think you are delightful, @reepbot. I really admire your openness and inquiring mind. You do have lots of friends on this forum, by the way. I know it's not the same as face-to-face real-time friendship, but it's a great place to practice. All of us are different, which is what is exciting about meeting new people and finding out who they are, and also, who we ourselves are.
 
reepbot, if I were to choose a colour for you, it would be green, because it's my favourite colour and the colour makes me smile, that's what you are for me on these forums.

What about the colour red? Because that is my favourite colour.
 
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