You honestly don't find any of it a little bizzare? Okay we'll agree to disagree.
I think it's more intense than out of the house yes, because she can't step back from it. The very nature of being in there creates an environment free of outside people and influences. I guess you've never been in a situation where you know something in your head but hope for it anyway, so you can't empathise. I'm not saying it's good for her, I'm just saying it's human, and real. At least she's not a robot only interested in how they look to the outside. As an emotional person myself THAT is the sort of behavior I find bizarre. There's nothing wrong with having different opinions, that's what we're here for, and you express yours well and I like that.