i hate meeting new people. i really do. i altways get so anxious about what i will say. my hands start to shake, i give less eye contact than normal, and i just want to die. and then i say something stupid to this new person i'm meeting. they look at me like i'm a freak, and later that day my mind replays that encounter over and over again until i just want to crack open my skull so that my bad thoughts could dissapear forever. because i'm always thinking 'i'm not nomal, i'm just a retarded piece of shit, a pathetic loserwho deserves to die.'. but i'm trying to think more positive thoughts, trying to be more normal. i do like having negative thoughts than positive thoughts. i have always felt more comfortable being insulted than praised. to b honest praise freaks me out, because i feel that i never deserve any. i only feel that criticism is the right thing for me because i need to hear the truth. to me any compliments i get are just lies. i know they think i suck.
Hey reepbot.
A lot of people are going through this: Social Anxiety/Social Phobia. Even if you are not on the Autism spectrum. I think there is a lot of sensitive people out there. You are definitely not alone reepbot.
To relive the anxiety it can help to learn breathing exercises. You can do deep breaths counting from 1..2..3..4..5 then breathe out counting 6..7..8..9..10 a few times. Practising it a few times a day helps and gets you in a routine to calm yourself down. Best to do these in situations when you first notice your anxiety is building.
Regular excercise everyday can burn your nervous energy out. Running or going on a exercise bike is good.
You can listen to anxiety free videos on YouTube. I personally like this one

You can also listen to anxiety free music on there as well which may help calm you down.
Also sometimes when you notice anxiety is coming you could try writing your feelings down in a book. Writing can take your mind off the anxiety attack.
There should be a lot more stuff on the internet you could search for on different relaxation techniques for anxiety.
I think it is also beneficial to learn why and what happens when you are having an anxiety attack. It is good to know why the body is acting the way it is and what is causing you these intense feelings.
You might even wanna see a psychologist who deals with Aspergers and Anxiety. They will know a lot more exercises you can do to help your anxiety and it can help talking to someone.
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