Columbo
Never again
Your thoughts may or may not be romantic that does not really matter. The reality is you are unable to move yourself past a non existent friendship that is not and never will be a friendship and you have become obsessed by it. Not a day goes by where she is not in your thoughts and in your posts and it has been years. You need to get healthy and move on for your own mental health and well being. If you ever want to have healthy relationships and friendships with other females, you will need to work through the issues you have tied up around Inigo and let it go.
it might be a friendship. i can't lose hope. i just can't. if i lose hope than i am nothing. i mean losing hope overall, not with that one person.