But it is. Estelle continually doesnt take responsibility for how her actions create ripples and repercussions, for example how her lie to me (which she has never refuted btw) contributed to me lying to her. Its just always this one sided rhetoric about how good she was and how bad Tim or I or Aleisha or Johnson were. Its exhausting enough getting hate from the masses, which we were all aware of would happen. But look at Johnsons most recent instagram post, where he has to preempt the death threats by writing why he saved Tim over Reggie, and look at how gracious Reggie is when she commented its ok, she understands. Why cant we all be like that?! Why cant we enjoy this experience and know that it was a game, and that lots of people did things that actually arent that bad, because it was all in a game. Like honestly no one did ANYTHING hurtful or destructive.
All us housemates are a family, and its so so so much more enjoyable when we stick together, but Estelles continuous negativity towards Tim, likening him to an abuser (!?), which of course he blew up about. And Im not saying the way he did it was appropriate, but I totally understand the buildup that created that outcome. Or what of Estelle replying to a tweet that says Drew putting up Lulu and Jaycee was racially motivated (yes it happened. Yes I reported that because that went too far for something which is SO NOT TRUE)?! This whole time we're already putting up with Australias hate on the frontline, while on the backline theres 1 housemate that has this agenda that has to portray all our real-life characters as mean and abusive and racist. And here you are being like "oh, but shes not really". Reggie sent me a message today asking me if Im ok, Tully has continuously reached out to me and always said to me and every other HM "please call me if you ever need to chat because I know what its like to be on the end of hate". You know how much that means to all of us? A lots. It makes all the difference that Tully can slam me on twitter, but I know that in the end she cares for me and knows its a game, and she would never do anything that actively is there to slander or harm me. The hardest thing is not Australias hate, its this story from someone whom I love dearly continuously saying that the game and real life are the same thing, that these edited caricatures of us are not only our real life personas, but in fact are WATERED DOWN personas of us, and perhaps (its always subtly and indirectly said), just perhaps we are just as bad or even worse off than what is being shown.
Also, I dont like how youre saying "shes not telling these people to go yell at you". Puleeese. Thats exactly where this whole thing thrives, indirectly creating situations where this sort of stuff happens but then being able to say "well I didnt tell anyone to do that". Last night after she called me out on instagram live the amount of hate I got on my posts and in my DMs was over 10x what it normally is (not that much), so I'd appreciate you not making arguments that you dont know about.
I totally agree with you on the whole "its not Estelles doing, its the edit.." thing. I have blamed the edit a few times, and I should take more responsibility for my actions. People would hate me no matter what, because of things I did in the house and the way I played the game. What I meant as cheeky can come across as arrogant, and thats my own fault for trying and failing, but its not bad that I failed. And actually, to some people, I didnt fail, some people see the joke in it. Like some people were really really angry at me for saying "I can buy friends" when I talked about winning the money. To me thats so obviously a dumb joke haha, but to some they thought I meant it.
I guess the main thing is, it hasnt been as fun because out internal group is divided, and coping with an edit that doesnt show the full range of our actions, our motives, is hard enough without someone WHO WAS THERE and WHO KNOWS HOW A LOT OF IT WENT DOWN continuing this false narrative, for what? To be the saviour or the good person or something.
