Okay Lionel Hutz, I am going to leave you to it.
While you may be unclear of where to go from here, I need to get my hair did, and meet up with a girlfriend for lunch.
While we are noting, I also note that while you used to display shades of witty, you have now become a hate filled, vitriolic, repetitive, fixated, dribbling nutcase. Since there have been times in this forum I have suffered with what ails you, I can tell you, the only cure for that is to log out, open the front door and step out, because this matters not.
When you surround yourself with people who can barely tolerate you, it is never going to bring out your best attributes. We both know you are better than this.
If it would help you with moving forward, I will PM you my full name and email address, do with it what you will and have a good day.