Benjamin HM 2012 - Officially joins Behind Big Brother.

In the finale I could hear Mum through the eye - as she arrived. She said - I am so nervous - I don't know what to say to him. Then Big Brother promoted me to move forward - which is when we were reunited. At that moment it was unspoken that we really felt the absence of my father who had committed suicide just a few years earlier. Had my Dad been strong enough to hold on a few more years - we knew this moment would have made his year. I think he was there in spirit - a few experiences in the house led me to believe I had him still watching over me.
 
Benjamin2012HM said:
I am moving away from the direction Estelle is going in (for the record I have nothing against her. I just simply had difficulty with her on a TV show two years ago. I have no ongoing feelings of hate - I actually wish her all the best and still try to make contact with her. Sometimes sending her advice and nice texts messages) - everything she has posted is FACT in relation to my time in the house. Although I don't support the negativity she has directed at the producers. - I did go on a journey with my beliefs on marriage - inside and outside of the house - I did always plan to propose to Ben right from the start. but I WAS NOT always comfortable with my sexuality (I think growing up in the 90's was a factor), my prejudices about same sex marriage were a derivative of my own self loathing. I was at times hard and hurtful toward myself as it took awhile to become fully comfortable with my sexuality. My Mum actually asked me to propose to Ben and offered the family stone - not a ring. I was planning on asking Ben to marry me in New York city two months before Big Brother. But changed my mind when I started to feel I was going to be on Big Brother. I had been knocked back three times before in the final hurdle of auditions and I thought telling the producers I would propose when evicted would be the final effort to secure my place in the house. It was discussed heavily - that I would be happy to propose even if I came out of the house first. (I still would have.) When inside the house I felt is was still being true to myself that I would argue for and against about same sex marriage. I thought the audience would be more interested to see the journey I had been on in the outside world. before they saw my proposal and judged me as a political statement. I love Ben and we are still not married. Because its not legal. Mind you Ben and I are still together and very much in love. Also Alex and I still laugh at the fact he thought I would be evicted first and we can't believe I won. The way it turned out - was simply magic and I am still in shock.

I am also eclectic with my TV heroes. I begged borrowed and stole from my hero's - Brenda (90210) - Kristen Wiig (SNL) - Claire Danes (My so called Life) and a list of other tragic shows from the 90's. I credit them as much as I can. I think we all pretend we are like our famous favourites. Yet I still think that is an extension of yourself.

Estelle. I am happy to answer your questions - I do think privately. As this is not the time or the place. I don't think you can whole heartedly blame me for your bad experiences on the show. There were far more haters inside that house which your have forgiven. Why have you singled me out? I just don't know. Maybe its because the public also saw me as the main culprit. I am not sure. What I will say, is how much I have learnt since my time in the house, almost paranoid to make up for what I felt shameful of. I would never mean to hurt anyone and I hope if anything, The bad behaviour seen on the show - which people detested - gave people something to learn WHAT NOT TO DO from.

I would like to move fwd and talk about the fun times. Not because I am ignoring questions but because I would like to be a happy person who leaves negativity at the door. I am a flawed character and I speak without thinking. I hope my opinions from hear on out - are entertaining and not humiliating at the expense of others.
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I will give you 8 out of 10 for this. You have made an effort to appear to be nice, even though I believe that you, as a narcissist, are not actually capable of feeling empathy. But it is better in my opinion to fake niceness than actually be true to your nasty self. However, you did slip a little in the middle when you tried to pass the blame onto the others for their treatment of Estelle. Still, well done over all.
 
Poona said:
Nah that was Stacey with Ray in the bathroom. They never did show us how Ray and Stacey got in there. We only saw him arrive through the kitchen (where Ben, Estelle and Stacey were) and then head outside (where Michael, Zoe, Sam and Layla were) and the later leave the house again. Not sure at what point Stacey left the kitchen and how Ray appeared with her in the bathroom. Would like to have seen how that occurred though.
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Maybe Lawson the magician was auditioning for BB14.
 
silkworm said:
I will give you 8 out of 10 for this. You have made an effort to appear to be nice, even though I believe that you, as a narcissist, are not actually capable of feeling empathy. But it is better in my opinion to fake niceness than actually be true to your nasty self. However, you did slip a little in the middle when you tried to pass the blame onto the others for their treatment of Estelle. Still, well done over all.
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It's disgusting that you say this, considering that he lost his father not so long ago. No matter how much of a "narcissistic" a person is they will still have strong sympathetic feelings, especially when it comes to their parents and close friends. Not to mention, Benjamin had depression over his father's death.

You're becoming no more than a bully he was now. You and the Talent Stunner guy (or whatever his name is).
 
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As the video states: Ben's best moments.


People, let's take a chill pill and laugh at Benjamin's light-hearted side, as seen in the video.

Oh, I can see a 'bright' moment between the two (Ben and Estelle) at 41:40, where she laughs at Ben's quirky nominations. :)
 
Benjamin2012HM said:
Recognizing Stacey's voice as the ninja. When she came to get Delilah. I stood back laughing as 'Boozie dog' loved and hated Stacey. So when the ninja was struggling to get Delilah out - I knew it was a hate moment. Stace loved that dog so much.
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Ahh Delilah and George Clooney from last year

I felt attached to those two more than any of the HMs, and cried a bit when they had to leave.

Wish they could both make cameo appearances back into the house, even for just a week

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JordanS said:
Estelle was an annoying housemate. Why should Ben be 'sorry' for what he did?
Good on him!!
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Just because someone is annoying, it doesn't give you the right to take things to the level @Benjamin2012HM did with what he said and did. There is always a right way and a wrong way to handle those situations and Ben chose that latter. Instead of lashing out and responding to the negativity, @Estelle.Landy took the high road and not once (that we saw) did she sink to the level other housemates had done.

Until Ben appeared on BBBA, I had no opinion on him as a person because you can't judge someone as a person based on their actions when they're in the ultra-unrealistic situation that is Big Brother, and because I just hadn't followed what he had been up to since he was crowned the winner. But now that he's shown up on here bad-mouthing Estelle, quite happily telling us which male housemates had small cocks, trying to paint himself as a changed person etc - it's left me thinking that we really did see the true Ben while he was in the house and it wasn't the pressures of being inside that compound 24/7 that made him do what he did. He also hasn't changed, even though he thinks he has.

He wants everyone's approval, yet his actions are mostly garnering disapproval. Even now, two years later.
 
Shackles said:
You give Ben fans a bad name.😬

Can't we love both Estelle and Ben?

Like myself. 👍
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I'm sorry but if Estelle feels as if she can go liking posts that are considerably rude towards Ben, I will never like her. Never have, never will.[DOUBLEPOST=1411023439][/DOUBLEPOST]
Rison said:
Just because someone is annoying, it doesn't give you the right to take things to the level @Benjamin2012HM did with what he said and did. There is always a right way and a wrong way to handle those situations and Ben chose that latter. Instead of lashing out and responding to the negativity, @Estelle.Landy took the high road and not once (that we saw) did she sink to the level other housemates had done.

Until Ben appeared on BBBA, I had no opinion on him as a person because you can't judge someone as a person based on their actions when they're in the ultra-unrealistic situation that is Big Brother, and because I just hadn't followed what he had been up to since he was crowned the winner. But now that he's shown up on here bad-mouthing Estelle, quite happily telling us which male housemates had small cocks, trying to paint himself as a changed person etc - it's left me thinking that we really did see the true Ben while he was in the house and it wasn't the pressures of being inside that compound 24/7 that made him do what he did.

He wants everyone's approval, yet his actions are mostly garnering disapproval. Even now, two years later.
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Oh boo hooo!

There is a reason no one liked her in the house.
If you are telling me that she wasn't liked by just him then sorry, I disagree with you entirely.
 
JordanS said:
Oh boo hooo!

There is a reason no one liked her in the house.
If you are telling me that she wasn't liked by just him then sorry, I disagree with you entirely.
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He led the campaign against her, he started all the bitchiness that became acceptable in the house because eventually most of them were doing it. Sure, the others may have had their own reasons for not liking Estelle, but with the mob mentality he created, the situation got extremely nasty fast and Estelle to her credit endured it to the very end and didn't walk out.
 
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