Still having a read through Stacey's Tumblr.
25th Oct 2011 | 1 note
I just did something really weird.
Today is my last day of unemployment, i haven’t worked since July the 2nd of this year, i have been out of work for far too long to even put my mind to the test of working out how long that actually is, i am thinking a little bit over 3 months or some shit like that.
Last night i couldn’t sleep, prior to bed i had hooked into 2 bowls of Peters ice cream whilst watching an episode of the latest season of Skins, one of my favourite shows.
The episode was about a lesbian looking alternative girl that started at a new school, she had left her old school because she had been viciously bullied, they made a facebook page about how ugly and lesbian and dykey she was, and she was understandibly traumatised. Needless to say we all know that some kids are really little ****s!
So on her first day at her new school she was preyed upon by the cliche cool girl group, ruled by a blonde bitch of a leader, and 2 little disciples. After the first day they made friends they went to mall after school and shoplifted and took drugs (yes, this does sound very familiar to my past after school curricular activities, when i was back in NZ i was so stoked i was allowed back into Farmers again!)
So, understandably the new girl was pretty stoked because she thought maybe, just maybe, this was her fresh start all coming shiny and true. Making friends.
Further into the episode the girl had her new friends over and the bitchy blonde vindictive slutty whore of a girl found the website that was built about her and printed out all of the pictures and posted them all around the school, everyone saw them and pointed and laughed at this poor dykey girl and made her feel like shit on her first day.
Why the fuck are you explaining that episode to us? its completely irrelevant to anything. Well hang on, it kind of is, reinforcres teenage girls are nasty, nasty and bullying is so common, you don’t even hear about half of it because people are afraid to speak up. Alas, hear my out. brussel sprout.
I couldn’t sleep last night, all i could think about the time when i was the new girl at a new school, in a new country, things couldn’t of been more differant, and i couldn’t of been more scared, plus i really couldn’t figure out why those hiking bags by Jansport where all the rage and everyone wore them so so high on there backs. I rocked up with a brand spanking new bright yellow one shoulder bag by Roxy, cause thats what everyone in Sydney would do. I stood out like a sore thumb on my own, sitting in the playgroud, wanting to go and cry in the toilets, which i left for the bigger time slot of Lunch. It was awful.
I don’t remember how it happened but i remember a group of 3 girls, lead by one pretty blond..who was a bitch…and to this day..is still a real headcase, But i was lucky to have found the 2 other girls out of that group took me under their wings and still to this day we are best friends, i couldn’t imagine or live my life without them in them. I would do anything for them. They saved me i guess, things turned out, as the always should do.
So i couldn’t sleep because i am so nervous about starting at this new job, in past jobs i have been met with some really nasty bitchy people, who got what they deserved in the end, again, things turned out.
So tired today, it got to 1pm and i still hadn’t got out of bed, it was raining so hard, pissing down, and i was feeling so tired and thinking about being a scaredy cat, and how everyone was like ‘just be yourself, you will be fine’ ..shit advice FYI.
Then i did the really weird thing.
The rain was so hard, it sounded so cool, and i realised i never give rain a chance, i am always running away from it so my hair doesn’t go frizzy, so i got out of bed, in just a singlet and no undies, and i just went and sat in my backyard and let the rain hit me straight for like 5 minutes, just sat, half nude, and got belted by the rain.
Then i realised i had no pants on so i should go inside before i get a call from the police and being charged for having a really hairy box.
Anyway, i felt good after that, because i challenged myself and i did something differant, so i guess if i can do that, i can start and be ok at my new job tomorrow right?
I guess if i wear pants i will be ok.
Dare to differs peeps, be proud of yourself, do funny things, dance as if your fanny is on fire then go outside into your backyard and then let the rain out it out
xxx
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