A secret for you.
It is safe to say if men were were measured by lollipops, there are not too many flavours I haven't tried...
When my son was 4, I had this awful feeling that he would look at me with the same disgusted eyes I viewed my own mother with (alcoholic bipolar nymph). So I promised God the next man I threw a leg over is the man I would commit myself to long term.
I expected a 6 - 12 month plan. Five long years later I met my partner.
I have to say though, the 5 years I spent celibate taught me to be strong, to self love, to search for opportunities and to be the best me I can be. People say I am "lucky" to have found a man like my partner, but to be honest - I would never have settled for any thing less.