And in his diary room apology the morning after when he was sober the unaired transcript makes null and void his declarations that he would choose Cat in the on-the-spot HMs Q&A session. Of course he would say he would choose Cat when she is sitting in front of him watching what he will say. He didn't really have much choice, did he given the situation he chose to put himself in?
That being said, what comes out of Lawson's mouth can no longer be regarded as truthful, either drunk or sober. He is the only one who knows what is truth.
But the unaired transcript makes a farce of him "choosing Cat":
“I don’t know what I feel for Cat,” he said, in a transcript of the confession obtained exclusively by News Corp Australia.
“I feel happy when I’m around her and when we’re talking. I don’t think that I love Cat at this moment, but I have strong feelings towards her.”
“I don’t think that love is something that is just there as such.”
Although the amateur magician admitted his feelings for her are “strong” and he enjoys the time they spend together.
“I feel happy when I’m around her and when we’re talking. I enjoy her company, things she has to say, and I listen when she speaks. But it’s very early.”
With all of that said, Lawson conceded that he still loves Leeder, despite obviously breaking her heart by cheating on national television.
“I love Candice. I feel that love for her for … what her and I have been through. That kind of love I don’t know how to explain.
“I will always care for her even though I’ve really hurt her. I kind of owe my life to her in a way.
“I couldn’t say that I love Cat but it’s obvious that I do feel something for Cat.”