I have wondered if some people living in the Eastern states are feeling any anxiety going from lockdown to total freedom?
Definitely. I had an old friend message me today and got a wave of anxiety. Not even sure why. Maybe about actually catching up and socialising again? A feeling of a lack of personal achievement or anything during covid? Awkwardness? Turns out he wanted to know something about video editing.
I made plans to see James Bond with people today, and I honestly feel uncomfortable about it.
Intellectually you can understand all this. I have especially been looking at UK footage in the news. People out and about without masks. Often involving Will and Kate looking nice. Life looking normal. I know that'll be life, it'll be normal again. It just feels weird.
Even when we were out of lockdown, social life and nothing ever went back to normal. I have still not seen huge numbers of friends since pre-covid. It's going to be months and months before anything may seem normal. Even could be years.
As part of my own personal plan out of this. I will just try and cultivate some new experiences as far away from here as possible (domestically for now). At the end of the second lockdown last year I went to Sydney almost immediately. Caught up with people, just enjoyed being somewhere different. Then I went to QLD and had an amazing experience. Met lots of great people. Learnt to Scuba Dive. Was dancing in pubs and clubs. Went skydiving. Even dived a Shipwreck. It was exactly the cuicit breaker I didn't.
It was such a massive change in life, but so good.
Unfortunately, all the positive energy faded long ago.
I almost booked a trip to go shark diving interstate for Jan, but I will wait until there's actually a word on a border opening. Like how QLD announced open by Christmas.
Coming out of this massive void of life is going to be so weird, but one day it'll be a distant memory.