i really feel for you being in a situation where the majority of people that were there were used to some sort of public exposure already. looks like most of the 2013 HMs seem to have done this as well, and i could only think of Sharon who might not have been in the spotlight before, but i think she went in looking to promote her business anyway. does not look like the average joe/jane scenario once again, and i was really hoping this year would be different, we have asked for this in the site so many times. why they no listen?
i am really glad this did not put you off at all, next year you will know the ropes, and hopefully not be so nervous or self conscious. your personality is what it is, and they obviously liked what they saw with you, just the butterflies and the lack of auditioning for anything before might have got to you
can i ask you, were you wanting anything at all out of BB if you went in? fame, promotion, job, freebies, more sex, hahaha?